hear ye, hear ye, welcome one and welcome all. i’ll tell you all why i just spent $(???) on the domain rights to my new fresh and fabulous website, if you’d like to know. im cleaning out my room right now. like doing a serious clean. if this whole blog goes well, maybe i should open up a depop so y’all can buy the scratchy cardigans i just pulled out of my closet. you bitches would eat them up, trust…
anyways, i found a diary of mine with a neon green, fuzzy “K” on the front of it. i must not have been older than seven when i had that thing, based off of the “Justice” tag on the back. so of course i had to go through it!! like, i firmly believe my life in the 2nd grade was way more riveting than it is now.
inside were written two things:
I HATE TREVOR (sorry trevor, but im sure my feelings were valid)
girls love ALL
this is astonishing!! like seriously, woah. i know that little me only filled up one half of a page before deciding to scrap the whole ‘journal entry’ idea, but DAMN!! lil’ chick really has a knack for this whole writing thing!! i just know virginia woolf was absolutely shaking in her edwardian boots. but really, that is profound as shit if you’d ask me. firstly, me quietly expressing my rage towards a man (a seven year old with a Simpsons lunchbox) who must’ve wronged me. i use the h word. the word held so powerful to a seven year old. hate is a feeling that sways life and death!! it holds no bounds!! then, I likely reflect on my feelings. really have a good look at myself in the mirror [stern voice]. and i come out the other side declaring that girls love all?? my twenty year old brain is left turning its gears. what happened, was the hate overcome by love?? did i do some breathing techniques?? or, was this the first recorded instance of me naturally beginning to question the fluidity of my gender and sexuality?? declaring that if “girls love all” that maybe id never been "girl" enough to begin with…
deep shit, right?? really hope you guys are on the same wavelength as me here.
well now, many years later, i have come to terms with the fact that i am simply a woman who loves to love all. if you also love to love, or even hate to hate, please spend a few moments of your day reading and talking with me
kam
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